My eyes are unfocused, staring out the window at... I don’t know what.
I’m sitting at the dining room table this morning with my jaw hanging open. One hand is holding my phone in this sort of listless grip and the other’s tapping the side of my coffee mug while I’m trying to calm myself down.
I got a new phone a while back, and intentionally opted for one with less storage as a way to limit how digitally tethered I am.
It backfired.
Today I learned I’ve been missing messages in a group chat with some of my friends for, um... well quite a while.
Like months.
Plural.
Less storage meant less room for apps. That was originally a selling point because less room for apps meant I’d have to actually think about which I needed, and which I could go without. The idea was to limit when, where, and how I could use them; any that don’t make the cut can be used from my computer, anyway.
This all sounded great in theory.
But, basically, it now means I just have a ton of “ghost” apps on my phone that stay permanently offloaded for storage optimization. I redownload them if/when I need them only to offload them again after. When my phone updates, it even auto-offloads some more to maximize storage, since software OS installation takes up so much space... I don’t always know which apps get offloaded, and I don’t get notifications when they’re like that.
ANYWAY.
These are friends from my hometown. We go way, way back. Originally, this group chat used to be a text thread but, years ago, a certain friend among us went and got a non-iPhone and messed everything up. That was back when SMS messages weren’t compatible with iMessages, so we had to figure out a new solution. We used GroupMe for a while, then WhatsApp for a bit, and now our latest edition is a private group on Discord.
I have a lot of catching up to do.
How could...
UGH.
I mean, wtf?
How could I not notice?
What the fuck is wrong with me??
Our Daily MAP Year Prompt
314/365
How comfortable are you with telling people you fucked up?
onward.

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